A couple of months ago I got pretty sick and for some reason, ever since then my energy levels haven't really bounced back. I don't know if it's just that the blog has been going for over five years now and five is typically my limit on most of my creative endeavors. Or maybe it's because none of the flowers bloomed this year and the leaves dried up and fell off without all their glorious colors and without all that incentive I just haven't felt like going out to take photos nearly as much as I have in the past.
It could be because life is currently so incredibly busy that I hardly know my own name most days let alone have the time to plan out and then go to take great photos. Whatever the case, I've just felt like sticking close to home for the last couple of months whenever possible.
It's not just the blog, it's kind of every area of my life. I'm tired at work, I'm tired at home. I've thought and thought and not come up with a single costume idea for Halloween this year. I know there's still time, but I'm tired. I'm so tired that I'm starting to wonder if this is how things are going to be for a while or for good.
Maybe this is just the season I'm in. Everyone warned me that my children's high school years would go by the quickest and I can now say they were right, it's been a blur. Everyone has their own places to be and people to see and it's harder than ever to stay connected as a family. Most days go by so quickly that I feel like I'm losing the fight and some days I'm too tired to care that I'm losing the fight.
It might just be that life has changed or I've changed and it's time to let certain things wind down and come to their natural conclusion. This time of year is extra busy for me and having been quite ill so recently probably means that all this mental and physical fatigue is temporary if I just let myself step back from things a bit, I'll get the rest/focus/inspiration I need to gain some momentum again.
Even it turns out that some aspects of my life are over, it's just the end of that chapter, not the end of the story. For now, the best I can do is just keep going, even if I have to slow down a little, keep showing up, giving each day my best, and see where the road takes me.
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