Sit and Wait

I know that they say that the hardest time of year for many is either during the holidays with all the pressure and the loneliness.  Or it's directly after the holidays when all the excitement is over.  For me it's definitely this time of year, when winter is only half begun and spring seems so far away.  It's the sit and wait, sit and wait time of year.

I don't mind having quiet times, or time to just relax and get lost in thought.  In fact, I think days of rest, where it's just napping, reading, looking out the window, are not only good but necessary to make the world slow down a little and give the mind and body a chance to recouperate from all its various stressors.  On the other hand, I do very much mind the endless days of nothing to do and no where to go with no end in sight.  Maybe it's the indeterminacy of its ending that gets to me far more than the doing-nothingness.

But, in spite of my feelings on the matter, this is a part of the seasons.  The time of doing nothing followed by the very busy times of spring and summer of doing everything, planting garden, tending baby animals, going to weddings, concerts, and graduations and on and on and on.  I guess I just wish that I had some specific dates in hand so I could know how long it will last the do-nothingness will last.  

It doesn't help that I am waiting for the next chapter in my life to begin, and have been waiting for weeks partly because of all the nasty weather that keeps me from attending meetings that would help me get started on a new path.  I'm trying to curb my enthusiasm and just enjoy the gentle pace of the world while I'm snowed in for days at a time, but mercy is it difficult and it only seems to get hard with each passing year.

So, in honor of all this sitting and waiting, and while I'm learning ways to be more patient and content to not know just how long it will last, I thought I'd post a few pics from a session that was almost entirely sitting.  Most studios really are filled with small spaces for close-up portraits and this is not where I shine nor what my blog is really about.  I need room for a whole outfit to be displayed, and it's tough to do that in a studio.  Not to throw shade, because I'm thankful to have this space, it's just been tricky for me learning to work with it because I have such limited exposure to it.

Well, I'll get through it, I suppose, both learning to work in this space, and learning to wait out the winter and the seasons of life each year.  

Outfit info:  Selkie Jam Cake Market Dress from Free People, 

doll ring from Unlogical Poem